Quick Update

What a crazy couple of weeks it has been.  Sometimes I feel like we are riding on a roller coaster.  So when I left off last, we had just learned that the Thailand program had closed.  At the end of that week, I had a message from Celeste but we played phone tag until mid way through the following week.  At that point we learned that even though the program had closed, Celeste went ahead and sent our application just to see what they would say.  What we learned was that Thailand would not accept us ever with my medical diagnosis of hypothyroidism.  Yep, seriously!!  Thailand views hypothyroidism as serious as cardiac issues or diabetes.  It is simply a lack of education and treatment options available in Thailand.  Celeste said that in the past clients have asked their physicians to omit stuff like this off their medical history.  That evening Matt and I talked and even though we thought it was ridiculous there was no way we would ever feel ok with consciously omitting from our medical history.  Really, at the end of the night we had a good laugh.  We asked God for guidance and this suddenly felt like a big neon sign saying "not this direction"!!  So we thought that was it, until we got another call the next day.  Celeste had more news.  Now Thailand wanted to add us to their program!!  What??!!!  We were so flabbergasted that we didn't even know what to say.  Cautiously, we asked if we were only approved if we would ask our physician to omit the hypothyroidism from my medical history. Yes, that is the only way Celeste informed us and then went into lots of other information.  How do we say no???  Something so minimal was not going to stand in our way.  The next couple of days were spent going back and forth.  We even made a trip home to see family and get their incite on the situation.  In the end we knew that we were just trying to justify to ourselves why it would be ok for us to go ahead and pursue the Thailand program.  We finally had to face that if we were working this hard to justify ourselves, this was obviously not ok. 

So, by Sunday we had officially decided that Thailand was not in our cards.  This was not easy to come to this conclusion, but boy did I feel like a weight had been lifted once we were finally able to tell Celeste our decision.  We both knew that we did not want to build our family on a lie.  And we are learning very quickly how stressful this process can be, we don't want to add our own stress by worrying about a lie we have hidden away.   

So we are offically on hold again.  However, I think we are very close to making another decision on a country.  We spent quite a bit of time on the phone with Bethany Christian Services last night talking over country programs that they work with.  We were able to talk through some of our questions and make some deicisons on countries we thought we were interested in.  Sorry, I know I am being very vague.  But we are holding off the excitement until we have been accepted and are on the trail again.  We'll continue to keep you all posted.

Thank you again, so much for all your messages, thoughts, and prayers.  Blessings, megan