Announcement!!!

It is time to share some news; Matt and I have made a big decision and we are changing the direction of our adoption.  In all honesty, God has opened a door along this journey that we didn't expect and we are stepping out in faith that He will continue to see it through and lead us to our child.  We have decided to continue this journey of bringing home our child from...China!!!

So I know that a lot of you are probably wondering how in the heck we went from Ethiopia to China.  That's a big difference!  Let me tell you, it was not easy to make this decision.  We have had Ethiopia in our hearts for a long time now and it was really hard to trust that this was a door that God was opening for us.  As I said in our previous post, we have been spending a lot time with our social worker discussing the recent news out of Ethiopia and while visiting with her, the option of China came up.  In many ways, what is happening in China seems too good to be turn.  This was one of my big hang ups.  If it seems too good to be true, it must be--this is what I normally think and had to fight with myself about while trying to decipher the correct move to make.  But in the end Matt and I really felt God calling us to step out of our comfort zone and trust Him.  Trust that He was continuing to guide us on this journey and that He is great enough to offer us a door that seems too good to be true, but it just might be that good.  I can't wait to see what He has in store during the next year.

Matt and I are open to a little boy or girl, always have been.  We decided when we started on this journey that we wouldn't pick the sex of our child if we were pregnant and we don't want that kind of control regarding our child through adoption either.  The fact that we are open to having a boy moves us up the list in a big way for the China program.  Unfortunately, most people who are waiting for a child from China want a little girl and that leaves a lot of little boys who do not have a family to come home to.  This is the main reason Matt and I felt the call to switch to China.  The wait for a little boy in China is suspected to be a year at this time.  Once we are matched with our child we wait about 6 months before traveling to China.  The travel to China is also different.  We only have to make one trip and we bring our child home that same trip!!  What a relief that we don't have to leave our child in the country before we can bring them home!

We are so excited with our decision, but cautiously excited.  It's hard to not put up walls around your heart to try to protect it after so many disappointments.  We are scared to death of more disappointments and heat breaks.  I am still learning to trust and to give EVERYTHING to God.  I can see in the past where I have tried to just keep a thumb of control on our adoption.  I want to give this entire journey over to Him.  I want to trust that He has us all firmly in His hands.  I am learning to do this.  It is a daily decision for me to let God have full control.  I trust that He has not forsaken us and will not leave us here.  He will see this journey through.  What an amazing God we serve.  A God who cares about us so much that He continues to guide and open doors that "seem too good to be true".  That is true love!!!  

In other news, my mom had a "suspicious mammogram" that lead to a specialized MRI test to further look at the suspicious area.  Today she saw her cancer doctor and she is still cancer free after two years!!!!  I am so relieved and happy to share this news.  I so want her to be around for many, many more years.  I want her to meet her grandchild(ren).  She has been a constant support and encouragement to me and she has walked this journey beside us.  I want her to be able to reap the rewards at the end of this journey as much I want it for myself.  She will be a fantastic grandma and I want her to be healthy and able to enjoy being a grandma!!

I am feeling very thankful after a long few months.  Thank you friends and family for your continued prayers and support.  Love you, megan